Happiness

Hi Guys
Writing a blog after a long time. This time the topic is a bit different .It's about happiness.Whenever I become sad I start working on my happiness and enriching life and get a lot out of it .But happiness also brings success with it and that disturbs everything .I dont know how to deal with it ,it is kind of a different stage where the rules and methods I use to deal in the earlier stage stop working or probably the will to apply them stops .I remind myself when in that stage that happiness is more important and I dont want success but unfortunately both go hand in hand ,I get confused and am not able to accept the minor victories.
The rules I studied to gain happiness really work if you apply them properly.
I think that feeling high and low are both parts of life and they will come alternately .About success ,things that are going to happen ,happen your efforts make a very small difference.
I wish that my aim remains to be happy and not to be successful ,it dont work for me.
Thank you .

Last time we discussed about making money online by filling surveys .Now we will discuss about making money by freelancing .For this you need to have special abilities ,if you don't have then spend some time on the websites I have given and get to see what are market needs and what you can give them.
I joined these websites about 2 months ago and have not made a penny yet ,probably because I don't have much to offer ,told you making money on internet is not an easy job.

1)Freelancer.com
2)vworker.com
3)elance.com (not trusted much)

These three websites are the most famous websites in terms of money and trust .But as usaul competition is tough , you need to have some skill to offer . For the list of skills you need check out the websites .

Earning from Internet (My experience)

Earning by internet is not an easy thing at all .If you are looking for a shortcut then you'll end up paying a decent amount to a scam website as almost 99% of websites asking for money in order to multiply it are scam.
The easiest way to make money online is by filling surveys but it is very difficult to find a good site in this area as most of the websites will not pay you anything after their work is complete and many will not send you surveys request .The leading sites in online survey industry and my experience  with them .

1)Survey Savvy : I made an account on this website about 2 months ago and have not got a single survey yet .This company promises to pay a decent amount (10$-20$ )for filling a survey of 20 minutes and will pay so but because of its immense popularity has many users but not work for them or gives less work to other country users and prefers citizens of its country first.

2) Cash crate : After a lot of research I made an account on this website , same thing as Survey Savvy happened here probably because of the same reason but the graphics of this website are good and some more things for time pass have been given ,getting back to our business this website proved to be of no good for me.

3)Greenfield / Toluna : Now at this website I got some peace , I was not able to make money though .Here surveys were given about once a week and there is a lot more to do there by which you can earn some points and you can trade these points for various lottery entries and Facebook points.

We have made no money yet now we are going to leave survey sites and move to freelancing .Here you can make some money if you have talent and capabilities ,fair deal huhhhh.

Stammering

From the last 10 months I am speaking in English as a major language ,I rarely spoke in Hindi even when the person to whom I was speaking to didn't know English .Today I had some work in college for which I phoned yesterday ,I tried to explain them the stuff in English but they were not able to understand so I told the same thing in Hindi on phone .They talked well on the phone because first I spoke in English ,you know respect for English thing .Today when I went to my college I directly spoke in Hindi and consequently stammered a lot .Believe me the guy who was giving me all respect yesterday ,started being rude to me.It don't matter much ,the real thing I lose because of stammering was my peace of mind ,I come in a state of shock because stammering is a real energy consuming work and consumes a lot of happiness .After that conversation I got really tried and you could have told that by looking at my face and I was also sick of talking to anyone ,I was like do anything ,hit me ,insult me but don't talk to me ,as it will be the worst thing you can do to me.That headache due to stammering kept on untill I came from the college and slept for 3 hours.
I trained myself to become uncomfortable while speaking in Hindi and that shows its effect sometimes and that's the reason I have been speaking in English from the last 10 months ,I still don't have a reason to switch to Hindi .These incidents happen rarely and I should get such shocks eventually.Never compromise for people if you start compromising for them they will force you to compromise more untill you remain with nothing .These incidents make me feel humiliated and shocked ,they cut me from the real world that I should live in .I hope that these things don't happen occasionally ,may God be with me.

Engineering

Exams are coming near ,want to finish all subjects on time,actually I'm planning to complete the one or two fifth of every subject ,rest will get covered automatically.Today I was studying LIC ,thought that I should buy an op-amp and timer 555 IC so that studying becomes a bit easier as I'll be looking at the things about whom I'm studying in detail.But don't want to go out to the market ,it has been a long time since I got out of my house without any really important work.I just need to go out and feel the air outside but the thing I don't like about going out is that I have to answer a lot of questions of my grandpa ,like where are you going ,why are you going  and at last it is not good to go out .I wonder if I'll be able to see the real world ever ,my family is always going to keep me bound to home .I really like to go out and see how people are doing and it makes me feel independent and free ,it also decreases my stress level which I think is considerably high but people around me think that the only important thing in my life is to study and I don't like to argue or tell lie though I think that it will be the right thing to do ,including regular outings in my schedule is going to help me a lot to reduce my stress level which is a major thing on which I am working from the last five years of my life .Really I worry a lot and don't enjoy life much that may be the reason I thought about committing suicide many times in the last few years .When I go to bed I feel like a long dagger should pierce my heart ,yeah.
Coming back to topic I have started studying for knowledge instead of studying for marks ,it helps a lot in studying ,I feel like studying the topics that are not the course also ,feel like studying them only .Still trying to invert my sleeping time ,I'm trying to stay awake at night so that I get more time alone in my room which I expect is going to be utilized in meaningful activities .

Silence vow

Had silence vow today ,but spoke 2-3 times by mistake ,read this thing in the book "The monk who sold his ferrari " by Robin Sharma .Really it gave a lot of peace .This thing makes you realise at least one thing that you don't need to speak always .You have an option to let the thing go and move out without speaking anything .Staying quiet also makes you feel peaceful and calm ,after all work is not everything happiness and peace of mind hold considerable value in life.Besides this I gave a speech on AI in Poornima college yesterday ,it was good ,though some girls were laughing on my stuttering but good thing about this was that there also I knew the real value of those bitches and people who were listening with patience ,not only for me but also in the market.
Coming back on silence vow ,it makes you realise your aim in life and the things you really need to do to achieve it.Don't feel like writing more ,attaching the certi I got from Poornima...not attaching it is taking a lot of time.

GYM

I joined gym about 2 years ago when I joined the gym I thought that soon I'll be having a very good physique and a powerful body ,I think everyone expects that before joining gym .But physique is a very far thing now the thing that I now aim at by gym is health and confidence ,don't know why I resist going to the gym ,because I resist changes or because I am resistant to a better life .whatever I want to go to the gym regularly it improves life in every aspect .Lets see when I start going to the gym and when the standard of my life starts elevating .I believe that every person gets what he wants to get ,if you are not getting a thing then you are not willing to get it hard or you know that you will not be able to handle that thing .Like if I wanna go to the gym Ill wake up early in the morning even without an alarm.May almighty help me to include gym in my regular schedule.